I Don't Believe You

Luckly I'm Found

Ah!!!! I know the past few weeks ago have been very hard for me to handle. But right now a new light as shined in my path. I have met a new friend and I'm glad my friend introduced us. Now I'm so happy I like this guy that my friend tried to get me to talk to we've been talking for the past few weeks now and he's made me so happy to just know that he's their to be my friend no matter what happens. And ever since I've been talking to him I have just got my whole mind off of my ex. I thought it would take forever for that to happen. But I'm glad I have someone to talk to that can understand me and like me at the same time. Because we both like each other but we don't want to loose each other you know what i mean yea it's kind of complicated but I think it's better to be friends first before you rush a realationship. And getting to know each other and being friends builds trust. And you need alot of trust in a realationship. I don't want to say his name. So I'm just glad i'm found by somebody.

Accidentaly In Love

I can't stand falling back into a love trance. Not that he's making me do that it's just me. I'm just not really sure what to do because there's a part of me that still love's him and there's a part that doesn't. The girl he cheated on me with broke up with him yesterday. And now he's comming back to me asking me back. And after what he did to me I don't really know if I want to ever go back to him. But I have all of these mixed emotions that seems like they just keep messsing with my head. One of my friends has gym with him so she always tells me what goes on and everything and yesterday she told me about that so I was like ok whatever what he did to me I can never forget for the rest of my life. But these past few days we've not been together has just been like a love strukk to me. But I have noticed everywhere I go he's there and it's like he's all around me and I can't get rid of the images. My friend also told me that he's been asking about me ever since we split. And now it's got me wondering if he's just trying to make me mad or if really wants to come back to me. It's crazy. What I did was wrote him a note this morning telling him how I felt about the whole situation and that I told him I still had feelings for him but I can't use those feelings because I am still hurt. And plus he's already got another girlfriend so I think it's pretty pathetic to come back to me asking me to take him back and I say no because I have a right to and he goes off and just does another stunt again. And that if I was to ever get back together with him I don't want hurt again. I don't know it's just really crazy. And maybe one day he will come to his senses.

If any advice let me know.
Thanx
Mandy

Need You Now

Broken

It's sad to think that you really trust the one you love and then that trust is broken between so many times you spend together. Well love isn't always cut out to be what you think it might be. I've experienced one of the most harsh breakups in my life. It's actually the second one I've experienced. Cheating I never actually put that word to thought through my relationships but now I know that cheating has a bad outcome. Just like if you cheat on a test and you get caught you fail and you get detention. Well it's the same way with love you cheat and you loose each other forever. Even though he cheated on me and were not together I'm not gonna let that put me down. Because I believe in myself. I believe one day I'm gonna fall in love with the man that I love. But for right now I want to focus on the things I want to accomplish. School I want to graduate and go to college so don't let love get in your way just push it away.